Just a little recap

Okay, so i'm back from the dead. 
I've been so busy these past months I don't know even where to begin explaining what i've been doing. But i'm in need of writing some stuff again and getting some weight off my shoulders, which is mainly the purpose of this blog.

This fall has not been good so far hockey wise. The team has been struggling and haven't found a way to win and we're currently last in our league. For me personally, i've been struggling with frustration and anger on the ice for almost the entire season. I let my temper get the better of me and it hasn't served me well. I started the season premiere, allowing eight goals and was put on the bench for the next two games.

That frustrated me a lot as I wanted to play, even though I deep down felt I wasn't going to perform well. But I swallowed it and kept on practicing and simplifying my game ever more. But it wasn't until last week until I started to get back to my game again and playing as I should. And it led to me getting the start last Saturday.

Well, it was mainly because the guy who's been starting lately couldn't play, but I took the chance and played quite well despite us losing the game in a shootout. I wasn't happy with the loss of course but I was glad that I pulled myself together and put up a decent performance. I decided that the fear and anxiety wouldn't take over 
and it didn't. I wasn't going to let my teammates down and myself for that matter.


The fun thing about life is that you never stop learning. And the thing that I learned from Saturday was that I can indeed conquer my negative thoughts and keep them from making me effective. But I still got a lot to learn on the mental aspect on the game. And i'm getting a lot of good tips from this book:

I've read it once and is on my second read at the moment. It gives a lot of good tips of how to prepare mentally and to keep your focus during games and such. But there's no straight way of getting there. We are all different persons and my experience with this book is that some things work very well and some things don't. You really have to try it for yourself and figure things out. But if you're eager to learn then it's a a great read. I've learned a lot about myself from reading it. Give it a shot!